I miss you every day. It’s not the same without you

Bad Mood

Last night, my mom go to Palembang. This morning she will has flight to go to Singapore, you know for what, for her holiday, HOLIDAY! And me, just stay @home. Doing my daily life, without something new, something different! It's make me bad mood guys. I wanna die, I wanna cry! I need some holiday, it's the time. But you see, I can't get some holiday on this long weekend. And yesterday, my friend doing something jerk! I hate it, he think he's a perfect man, but I think NO! You see?! NO!

Do you think you are a perfect man?! Absolutely, NO!

Hey you, do you think you're a perfect man?
No.

Do you think you more good than me?
No.

Do you think you can do the best more than me?
No.

A BIG NO FOR YOU! DON'T BE A ARROGANT MAN! I HATE YOU!

hello, I feel so bored!

this time, is a long weekend for me. but you know, I just stay at home, at home! I wanna go to some place, I want a holiday, not just stay @home, online, watching tv, I feel bored, BORED!!! I wanna go to Jogja, to refresh my mind. Pagaralam makes me bored. Ahhh~ tomorrow my mother will go to singapore, I wanna go too mom. But my mother said : Honey, this holiday just about mom and my friends. arghh! I wanna go to Jogja, but my sister is had some examination. SHIT!

nb : father, you say to me if you will give me Camera 'LDR' but when? I've been long to wait it. Hoshh

Super Junior-ing 'addicted'

I Love Super Junior
I Love Super Junior 'M'
I Love Super Junior 'happy'
I Love Super Junior 'KRY'
I Love Cho Kyuhyun
I Love Hangeng
I Love Donghae
I Love Siwon
I Love Yesung
I Love Ryeowook
I Love Leetuk
I Love Kangin
I Love Heechul
I Love Enhyuk
I Love Kibum
I Love Sungmin
I Love Shindong
I Love Henry
I Love Zhoumi
I Love You're Style
I Love You're Voices
I Love You're Dance
I Love You're Smile
I Love You All !

I Miss The 13th of you..

huaa

buat apa aku mikirin kamu kalo kamu gak mikirin aku? kamu tu mudah banget y ngelupain semua ini, inget gak kamu dulu gimana ke aku! sekarang apa? dasar ya, baj**gan kamu tuh, tau nggak?! jangan pernah kembali ke hidupku, emang kurang ajar kamu tu!!! arghh,

lelah

aku lelah.. lelah buat nahan semua ini! kapan sih berakhir? apa aku harus sebegitu menyedihkan? apa aku salah? apa seseorang salah kalo dia mencinta? salahkah? lalu aku harus gimana? mendem semuanya? aku ga tahan.. ini melelahkan! aku gak punya tempat bersandar, hanya dengan blog inilah aku bisa mencurahkan semua! entah kenapa, aku belum belum bisa (atau belum berani) menceritakan semua yg aku rasain sekarang.. aku dah berusaha bilang ke diri sendiri kalo aku gak bakal mati tanpa dia! tp tetep ga bisa! kenapa ya? apa dia sebegitu hebatnya? aku cinta dia.. dan baru kali ini aku ngerasa kalo dia emang yg tepat buat aku.. tp rasanya terlalu nyakitin buat kamu, karna selama ini aku dah nyakitin kamu.. aku ga sadar kalo kamu itu sempurna! dan didalam hidupku, aku hanya yakin kl kamu lah yg pas buat aku, tapi itu semua gak mungkin lagi.. maaf ya, aku cinta sama kamu lagi, dan aku harap kamu tau kalo aku kangen banget sm kamu..

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I love him again and again! help me god :( I can't to lve him... I miss him!

am I fall in love with you? oh gosh!! I can't love yooou

cuek?

banyak orang bilang aku cuek plus jutek! emang iya? jgn ngomg dr blakang dong, ngomg lgs sm aku! lgian aku mesti seagresif apa sm kalian? kok aku yg dibilang cuek? huh whateverlah, it's me if you love me, please accept me as I am, thank you!

-.-

Is there quiet quiet
And quiet is quiet
When passion shackled by a heart of unbelief
When the liver can no longer whisper into the conscience

God. . .
I was freed in a natural
Places where there is wind blowing the leaves caress
The place where stars adorn the night scattered

God is whispering to me
About the fairy-tale happiness unwritten right
About the beautiful dreams and hopes

Until no longer shackles that imprison the hearts
Until no more pain and grief that always tormented

Walk ....
In welling sigh
Crawling on the edge of the wall that dominated the lonely hearts
Walk ....
By the time piece
And a second story
Ter cast a beating in the clink
And groaning that was carved
within seconds of waiting
I passed a quiet aside
At the edge of rawhide wrapping my love story

I've never alienated his
Despite my alienation has alienated
I've never beaten
I'm just looking
Without the desire to see
Empty indeed ....
But I've found my thing
Small indeed ....
But he who took me to find beauty

I do not care
If no one understood where
Let me die by slow
Themselves enjoy the beautiful dream
Himself felt heartache
Remembering the love that has gone

My chosen man
Never at home in my heart Why ...?
Maybe ....
Too much choice
Or maybe ...
I'm not allowed to vote
So I'd get a woman elected ...

Is forever I'll never be able write the word happy
Because happiness is always away
Must every word that slipped is pain
Should any word is the dried tears
Or together broke into a sweat that kept dark and quiet
Is forever I will not be able to pronounce the word happy
Whether it is ...?

this night

I don't know what should I write? but tonight, I feel something happen, something different.. bu I don't know!

aneh

aku gak pernah ngerti sm perasaanku ini, terkadang aku kangen tp terkadang juga aku gak mau ngeliat dia.. aneh memang! tapi aku pun ga ngerti kenapa.. aneh gak sih? huh terserahlah.. aku cuma pengen seseorang yg bisa ngertiin aku, syang sm aku, nerima aku apa adanya dengan segala kekurangan yg aku milikin.. tp kok kyakny ga ada? ya Allah, kpan sih? kpan aku mesti nunggu? oiya, kyakny bukan aku sendiri deh yg aneh, dia juga, kdang dia moodnya baik kdang buruk kdang mukanya asem gimana gitu, kadang senyum2 ga jelas! aneh kan? haha dibawa enjoy ajalah :D oya my school exams is over! over! hahahaha just 2 exams more, practical exams and rsbi, yayayayay! tommorow is holidayyyyyy thanks god, thanks for all :) oya, today me, mia, lisda, nelloy and egy having fun togethaa :D this day is so cool, we watch suju mini's drama in youtube, watching superhero film, cadet kelly! so fun.. I love this day, I'll be miss you guys..

nb: for me2s, happy bday [5 april] ! I hope everything that you want is happen..

sunday

listening to selena gomez 'naturally' love this song !

hmm, yesterday I made one of my lovely person in this worl cried!! I'm sorry, I never want to do that :( I'm sorry !!

aprill

heyo! this is aprillmoobbb ;p I try to through April with a smile, without the slightest despite cries altough there are something that can makes me sad, I must always smile! yesterday I have school exams , it's so bored :( after that rsbi exams, practice exams.. ow god !! give me strongnestttttttt

sad :(

oh God, I feel so sad now! Please give me happines.. I need it now :((

hei..

hei! this is my second day of national examination.. alhamdulillah, everything is o.k :) thx god! but tomorrow and the next day is.. jeng-jeng math, physic and bio! waha.. I must study hard! wish me luck :)
I want to share my photo's today






nb: he's birthday is..1 months again.. haha :D what should I give to him? -confused-

tomorrow

tommorow is my national examination ! bismillahirrohmanirrohim.. I hope everything is gonna be okay.. go fighting! we can past our examinatin guys! always prayer to our god :)
AMINN :)

can't I love you?

Even it is so painful, I can't feel it
Even I'm waiting for you and you wouldn't come
Even I think of you with shaking so badly, I can't feel it

Since the day I put your heart in my mind
I can't put my heart else where
Even if it hurts and breaks my heart apart, I won't close my heart

I am who was living in a lonely world
You're the only one who can make me smile

Can't I love you? Can you come to me?
Just for once, can you hug me in you arms?
You're the only one I love
Can't you accept my heart?

The reason why I'm still breathing in this terrible loneliness
It's all because of you

Can't I love you? Can you come to me?
Once again, can you hug me in your arms?
You're the only one I love
For the first time and last time

Even you're alive, you can't be held in my arms
Even you throw my heart away from your mind

Can't I love you? Even if I'm just behind your back
Distantly, I just can look at you from afar
Even if I just can protect your shadow
Even like this, it's alright.. even only I love you, it's okay...

-kim nam gil-

for you, someone I need, I love and I miss.
please come back :(
I really miss you.

course exam & last t.o 'math' in school

this day is my course exam. but i really indolent to go.. especially, i didn't prepare anything! waha! i'm sorry sir i didn't come! i want but i can't. the preparation of my national exam is not finish. i'm sorry :) o ya, i've been finish my last try out, math. from 40 questions, just right 31. huh :( but it's okay! 31 x 2,5 = 77,5! enaugh! thanks, altough still cheating. huh! i hope i can answer my questions by self. ow ya for nuran, great! bravo.. you just wrong 1! aha congrat sist, you can get the best of widia n rozi. congrat! i hope i can have brains like you! smile please :)