I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me so right..
maybe this is wishful thinking, probably mindless dreaming

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand..

it's okay, I can accept all of this concequences, maybe, haha, maybe...

bugemm-,

finally, I can passed my bugemm evaluation test with Mr. Muslim (he is Indonesian teacher)
first, I'm so so nervous, but when I can passed it, I feel so happy, thanks god :*
thankss everyone, pak muslimm

mama's song by carrie underwood

Mama, you taught me to do the right things
So now you have to let your baby fly
You've given me everything that I will need
To make it through this crazy thing called life

And I know you watched me grow up
And only want what's best for me
And I think I found the answer to your prayers

And he is good, so good
He treats your little girl like a real man should
He is good, so good

He makes promises he keeps
No he's never gonna leave
So don't you worry about me
Don't you worry about me

Mama there's no way you'll ever lose me
Giving me away is not goodbye
As you watch me walk down to my future
I hope tears of joy are in your eyes

'Cause he is good, so good
And he treats your little girl like a real man should
He is good, so good

He makes promises he keeps
No he's never gonna leave
So don't you worry about me
Don't you worry about me

And when I watch my baby grow up
I'll only want what's best for her
And I hope she'll find the answer to my prayers
And that she'll say

He is good, so good
And he treats your little girl like a real man should
He is good, so good

He makes promises he keeps
No he's never gonna leave
So don't you worry about me
Don't you worry about me

Mama don't you worry about me
Don't you worry about me

*this song for my beloved mom that has been a perfectly mom in this world

just let me know if you love me, but if not, please gently let me go

tell me, please

I don't know what happen with him. Overall, he changed into a jerk. I really don't like him. He never speak up with me, I don't know why. Please tell me if I been doing something wrong that make you angry, please tell me if you didn't like me, I can understand you. really, just go to meet me, and tell everything. tell me

I really don't know what should I do now. I really don't know what I'm felling now. All I can see is blur.. I can't see anything.. But I can remember all of my old story, really, it's makes me so hurt.

today? zzz-,

ok, today I spend my day with same daily activities, so boring..
wake up, go to bathroom, go to mosque, pray, breakfast, etc, apel, saw him again-,
so so bored.

but I wanna share my photo today with my lovely bear :'))

happy birthday M I A :* !

for nyimas amalia hanifah, a.k.a MIA happy birthdayyyyy :*
wish you all the best, love ya love yaaaaa

scame

he-o blog, what's up?
now I wanna share you about scame. do you know? scame is the name of my class, X.C. but I just wanna share the name. about theire profile is later.. haha

Afifah Astarini
Ahmad Zainal Afif
Albani Putera Satria
Aldina Febrianti
Amelia Noviasari
Amina Raisa
Andre Al-farisyie
Arditho Triahmadi
Arie Rizki Dwitama
Ayu Dzuryatin Nissa (me)
Azaria Riezkya Nayunda
Bela Hanipa
Bella Septika Meidianti
Bella Aprillia Sarma
Bhika Annissa
Eriza Dwi Indah Lestari
Erin Shabrina
Fadhilah Puteri Tandia
Fadiah Awanis
Fera Miftahul Jannah
Fidela Devina
Fityan Ayu
Hadyan Farizan
Karisa Arteha Liusukada
Kenn Sindy Kirana
Muhammad Bram
Muhammad Fauzan
Puteri Adrian Sari
Rachmadio Noval
Raden Ahmad
Silvia Vivin
Tazkiroh

happy iedul adha :)

happy iedul adha guys, I'm sorry if I been mistake:))

love still can smile

love can still be smiling at me
although you have hurt me
so just leave all
lost in the earth
Could I face tomorrow
filled with warm sun light
sobs not belong to me
I'll reach all hope deferred

what I'm feelling now

Maybe all this time I look okay in front of you. Seen smiling, laughing, looking like an ordinary me.

indeed, I hold the pain. pain that had kept me feel when he was near me. I want to not think about him. Really. But I can’t. For some reason.

I miss him. although I know, almost every day I met him. but, he's away. I was happy when he approached me, told me about something with shining eyes, laughing at something with me. I miss those moments. I am very happy to be at his side. listen to him jokingly
but now, it all ended. I do not know what made me and he was not as close as before. I really do not know. we seldom sat together and talked about what we want to.

it feels like I asked what made him change. or did he not change? maybe I think he changed but he was still he who first?
but honestly, he's a bit quiet now

for you,
although we are not as close as before, I'll still remember you. whatever happens. sorry if I have been wrong. if you need a friend to share, I'm always there beside you. sorry for everything.
I miss you. keep spirit when you passed the days. always try to smile when you passed many temptations..
Thanks for everything,

I love you

back to december

I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life, tell me how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while.
You've been good, busier then ever.
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why.

Cause the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind.
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night,
And I go back to December all the time.
Turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I go back to December all the time.

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving,
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
Realized that I loved you in the fall.
Then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind.
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye.

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night.
And I go back to December all the time.
Turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December turn around and change my own mind.
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right,
And how you held me in your arms that September night,
The first time you ever saw me cry.
Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right.

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand.

But this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night,
And I go back to December.
Turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December turn around and make it alright.
I'd go back to December turn around and change my own mind.
I go back to December all the time.

All the time

home town (y)

I'm in Pagaralam now ! yey ! today is Idul Adha's Day :) I'm so so happy when I can come back again to my lovely home town, thanks God, Sir Usman :))

a few days ago, I cried in front of my classmates, I said I wanna go home, but I can go home now. Thanks for all your support guys, dewi sartika's members, scame, I really love ya guys !

promise to love you forever - every single day of forever

You are my life. You're the only thing it would hurt to lose (Stephenie Meyer)

ignore

I and he open his facebook. I sit beside him. we open some game request, and I ignore all the requests. his friend asked why all the requests were ignored?
him: either was, but she was often overlook something, let alone ignore my feelings.